So I'm going to be 31 in a few days. How dreadful lol - hehe j/k.. I'm going to be officially "in my thirties" though.. which is a little weird to me. I can tell I'm becoming more of an adult because I'm not planning any parties or even making any significant plans lol. I requested it off this year, though, and truth be told - I just hope I have a few minutes of time to reflect / feel gratitude about my life's current circumstances. I miiiiight go to VT to see Kaskade and stock up on magick supplies and music. I was thinking of getting some new ink too. All in good time though..
Anyway - This year has found me in a particulary transitional point of life, and I am very excited and happy about it. So allow this first entry to be a tribute and reflection upon myself as TJ, and an Aries - as well as a celebration of all ARIES people - Our time has come yet again lol
I've always believed in myself as an ARIES in many aspects of my life. Spiritually for sure 100% . Mentally .. about 65%. Physically ehh, 50/50 at best... Personality - If you get to know me you will see that I have my moments.
What does it mean to be an ARIES? for me? It's a lot like having tunnel vision - or like - you can't hear the train until it's 3 feet from you. But whatever you're focused on means the world at the time. Especially in aspects of my personality and relationships... I keep touching the hot stove and it takes me over and over again to learn lessons. That's one drawback I guess you could say. It's not all negative though!
When I feel inspiration or motivation I REAAAALLY feel it. I'm in love with ideals and grand concepts. I love freedom, creativity, expansion, LOVE, pioneering, enterprising. I always root for the underdog and identify with oppression. I want to expand - and give forth what I've learned and come to realize.
They say words can't teach, only life experience can. - and for an ARIES that is remarkably true. I just won't be satisfied until I have the REAL experience and only after the RAW trial and error. I have to know I'm going somewhere and that there is an attainable GOAL. I have to feel it - experience it. Also people can tell me again and again what the outcome of some situation or circumstance will be, but unless I experience it full fledge for myself, other people's words / advice seldom have any effect on me.
My outward existence is not quite what it seems and I've been told this before. Most people upon meeting me can peg that I'm holding a lot back, and that there is more to the picture than meets the eye. I never understood why I was so inept at fitting in, showing people who I am, or being able to feel comfortable in seemingly ordinary circumstances. I think maybe it's wrapped up somewhere in my life lessons and the agreements I made before I came here... One thing I can't ever fake though is my emotional state. I'm just an easy read I guess..I wear my heart on my sleeve and it's been for better worse.
Another thing I've been forced to deal with (and this is thankfully more just MY OWN deal) is how young I look. People can't believe when I tell them I'm 30, or that I have a 9 year old son. lol "It's just the way God made me" I say.. or "that's what happens when you sell your soul.. kind of a trade off, you have to stay young forever." - people don't react to that one as much as I'd like them to. Again - something weird that I can only attribute to the agreements I made before coming here. There could be worse things I suppose..
Aries - I feel is a lot like KETHER in the Qabalah - think... "I AM" - I am .. It's the first thing that manifests. It's the first thing that's evident. Both amazing and new, yet uninitiated and foolish. What a weird combination lol.
So anyway that's kind of Aries in a nutshell - in my own opinion and based on findings from my own life.
Spring is here and there are a lot of April birthdays that I know of. As this time comes and goes, I would like to wish all of my Fellow - Arien friends a happy bday - and remember: You're waaaay cooler than any other sign lol
(j/k)
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This week's meat and potatoes esoteric entry will be about COLOR. Color is something I don't think too much about in terms of everyday, but for some reason I have been using it more and more lately.. so this will be interesting to write about.
Color can be an extremely powerful tool. Whether you are wearing it, adding it to your business, using it in mental communications, or whatever else. We as humans are aware of a spectrum of color - known as ROYGBIV or - the rainbow. We are aware of many other colors in-between as well, all of which have meaning and give off a certain feeling. I'm going to explain the concept of the spectrum as best I can, what each color represents (in ball park terms) and how we can use this information - some people may not agree with every little thing I say about this and that's ok. My advice would be to pick up whatever resonates with you and simply leave the rest behind.
Anyway - like many things in life - COLOR has a beginning, a middle, and an end - just like numbers (1-10 concept) just like the ABCs, and whatever else. As humans we are only able to detect a certain portion of the spectrum. They say it's basically from black to white in terms of contrast and from red to violet in terms of actual differentiation. Anyway here is a helpful guide to what the colors mean - Feel free to use this, draw from it, or label it as pure garbage. whatever suits you best.
Basics:
Red - Courage, Physical Ability, Sex, Our Bodies, Ignition, Passion, Fulfillment, Instincts, Food
Orange - Duality, Relationships, Sexual Identity, Friendships, Social Atmosphere, Agreeability,
Our Common bonds.
Yellow - Intellect, Aptitude, Swag, Intelligence, Personal Power / Ability
Green - Growth, Healing, Biology, Community, Responsibility, Expansion, Sustenance,
Nutrition, Love, Compassion.
Blue - Communication, Your "outward" effect on the world, Personal Truth, Vocal Ability,
Control of the Essence you give off, How you come across. - Outgoing information
Indigo / Violet - Psychic center, Clairvoyance, - Incoming information, Intuition, Inspiration, Dream center / Higher self
Whites - Union, God, the Universe - the higher parts we can't access yet, "It's all good"
Earth tones - Browns, dark greens / olives etc... - Home, Family, Security, Feeling full,
Happiness, Fruits of our labor, Good Food.
Pinks - Love, Romance, Happiness, Affection.
Gold / Silver - Purity, Perfection, Highest Quality, Magical / Imbuement, Royalty
Blacks / Grays - Neutrality, Humble-ism, The Void, Banishing, Tranquility, Blending in, Low
Key.
We can apply and use color in many aspects of our lives. We can wear them to reflect our vibrations, daily moods, etc... we can mentally put color around people / situations we find ourselves around, we can decorate our homes, we can do basically anything with them. The thing to understand is that COLOR elicits a response - and depending on the response we want, we use the color that best applies. This is kind of how magick and occult work goes... it's like algebra. We know the certain values of some things, but we need to put them in some kind of formula to solve for the DESIRED outcome.
Try it out - next time you have a big meeting or social engagement - a little while before hand mentally surround the situation with a color and vibration you wish to have. You'll be surprised how well it works. I do it all the time. People at work, residents, the parking spot I want at the mall, the mail order shit that's on it's way, the food I order. COLOR is really powerful... and it's a fun way to practice clairvoyance / second sight.
Don't forget about the new moon coming up... Couple days or so. Casting / Magickal theory suggests that new moons are the best times to dispel things you don't want anymore - or to get rid of things you are ready to get rid of. New moons are also good for "planting the seeds" of what you'd like to see manifested in the future. Also good for secretive and hidden acts.
Best of Luck!
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Now it's time for a personal anecdote - To lighten the mood and ground us back to normal day to day stuff.
I was in Price Chopper the other day (I go there a lot) and was just kind of getting over my recent illness, tooling around in the produce section when I noticed an odd, middle aged man staring at me from behind the Strawberries. He was wearing sunglasses but I can tell you - he was LOOKING right at me, ... not just looking, but staring. I tried not to notice. I glanced up, made the understanding that this dude it gawking at me and pretended to go back to looking at the juices in front of me. "Hmmm" I thought. "What is that guy looking at?" "Maybe he's blind?" I thought to myself. - and that would explain it. Just a coincidence! He can't tell if he's staring at someone or whatever - he can't see!. but where is his walking stick? He's got all this shit in his basket, perfectly placed.. no seeing eye dog or any noticeable friend helping him out...- there's no way he's blind. Oook, so maybe I'm just being paranoid. Maybe he thought I looked familiar or maybe he's just a pervert or something.. but he's still staring at me. This is getting awkward.. ok tj move on.. turn the corner, just get out of here.
As I continued my shopping I began to wonder.. what if that guy was a secret agent, and maybe I look similar to his contact. He was just sizing me up! Waiting for the secret signal I was unable to give him. Should I go back and check? No - ... don't do that. Maybe I look like his long lost nephew, Leonard - that disappeared into Plattsburgh after getting into some Legal trouble in Montreal, 8 years ago... Well he would have said something if that were the case. Maybe he was just a weirdo - and something about my amazing presence commanded his gaze for like 3 minutes. Maybe I was everything he hated about the new generation and he was looking at me in disgust. Who could ever know? -
Anyway I saw him exiting the store as I was in the checkout line. Well I can tell you one thing - after seeing him up close. He was no secret agent. Infact, he looked more like an ex professional wrestler. All washed up and trying to get a deal on watermelon that morning. HAHA! a non-threat to my life.. nevertheless I said to myself - this will make something good to write about.
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Thanks for reading : ))
Love and Light from your weird friend - <3 <3 <3 - enjoy the Spring!!
