My personal take on various subjects including but not limited to: current events, occultism / the paranormal, psychology, relationships, parenting, society, music, fitness, funny stuff and all the rest.
As I reflect on years gone by, all the new life in town lately, all the hustling restaurants, and the changing of the seasons, I am saddened by the news of the death of John Fenimore - I did not know him personally, but feel like I knew him well enough. Life is funny like that.. sometimes I feel like I get to know people MORE after their passing than rather if they'd still be around here on earth... In any case let it be known that his passing hit me close to home in many ways, and my heart goes out to his family and his friends.
If there's anything that I truly can't get my head around, it's when people of such value and potential get their time cut so short. There's so much to do and so many people out there to have an impact on. You will be missed - Keeping you in my thoughts.
Hey, guys! I decided to write it down this time because for some reason or another I just can't gather the momentum to "voice" my way through another entry... Vocalization and writing are two pretty different things and after trying my hand at "v-loging" I feel that I probably shouldn't quit my day job haha... (which is writing.) - Anyway here goes - another entry / episode of TJ writes it down. Throwback to writing - I'll give you some personal Updates, Talk about a good way to size people up, and End by a tribute to Nerds...
This week has been interesting for me, lots of things going on. Full moon in pragmatic / practical Capricorn - which is USUALLY not my favorite sign... HOWEVER - Capricorns are known for keeping their sense of self and are NOTORIOUS for how much they can get done / how they can keep their nose to the grindstone. - Maintaining momentum and following through has never been my strong suit, but after this full moon I feel like things might just work out for me. Let this be a lesson - just because you don't agree or naturally align with some things, doesn't mean those things can't help you and provide some hidden insight to your life along the way. I feel like I had things all figured out - I knew exactly what I was doing, how I was going to do it, etc... and then life goes - "NOPE! - try this out instead, lets make this, this, and that fall completely through - so now you're feeling lost, just about so alone it's comical, regretful about all your life's choices and in total limbo. Let's see how this feels for a little bit... " Perhaps the ULTIMATE test is to have faith, and see what I'm made of. I talk the talk... but can I walk the walk? - In the words of my SOL instructor - "Tj, up until now you've been like a caterpillar, happily munching away at anything that would give you a moment's satisfaction. You're beginning to rise above this now, and sometimes growth is painful." I find this to be very true. More on this to come...
I will end with a brief approval and huge thumbs up to nerds. Specifically nerds who do the speed runs of my favorite video games. I'm not sure if it's alright to call them nerds. Sorry if it's not - but that's kind of how I've always taken the term. People who are borderline obsessed with something - more often than not only ONE thing, ie collecting, or video games, or music.. (hehe) or comic books, or what have you. Indoorsy types, people who understand technical things, people who excel at the obscure, people who are just really really really into something..
Anyway let me just say - I LOVE these men and women who do these speed runs. It's so cool and they do it so fast. I love it. I love how these are like full blown adults too. And they are so harmless, and nice and all about fun, raising money for charities and stuff. - AND they have like EVERY video game! Check it out!
Here's a quick video for y'all - Hope everyone is enjoying themselves. One thing I forgot to mention is that if I'm repeating myself or posting the same old kinds of things (lol) - I'm sorry. I love you guys and don't want to bore anyone, but I don't watch these for quality control haha.
Anyway life is rad : ) - hopefully by the next time you see me, I will be in a brand new place - in a whole different frame of existence. "Keep on rockin' in the free world!"
In light
Here's some music to peep -
Kinda like the history of skateboarding.. plus Cass Mccombs is great:
Bye everyone!
Monday, June 13, 2016
Hey guys! Here's another video to tie it all together. Big things are happening and I feel like I'll be heading in to some next level tj kinda stuff. I'm happy to show you all what I'm thinking of - Please keep me in mind and enjoy my presence! As I will with you! ; ))
Heeeey guys thanks for stopping by and checking out my new video. I don't know about you but life has been a real intense journey lately. I'm trying to do my best but the universe keeps throwing things in my face. Anyway here is a little story I'd like to share!
Here's some music too -
Looking forward to the future. I'm nothing less than willing and able. As we embark on this transition into full on SUMMER, I ask all of you to guide me to where I need to be, as I will with you.
More to come : ))
teeej
Friday, May 6, 2016
Hey, guys!
Check it out - TJ talks about it this time! This is so natural! You know some people have accused me of being a little weird. I think I finally understand what they mean now. haha AAAAnnnyway glad you could make it. Check me out - I'm really cool.
Don't forget to check my music pics for the moment ; ))
So I'm going to be 31 in a few days. How dreadful lol - hehe j/k.. I'm going to be officially "in my thirties" though.. which is a little weird to me. I can tell I'm becoming more of an adult because I'm not planning any parties or even making any significant plans lol. I requested it off this year, though, and truth be told - I just hope I have a few minutes of time to reflect / feel gratitude about my life's current circumstances. I miiiiight go to VT to see Kaskade and stock up on magick supplies and music. I was thinking of getting some new ink too. All in good time though..
Anyway - This year has found me in a particulary transitional point of life, and I am very excited and happy about it. So allow this first entry to be a tribute and reflection upon myself as TJ, and an Aries - as well as a celebration of all ARIES people - Our time has come yet again lol
I've always believed in myself as an ARIES in many aspects of my life. Spiritually for sure 100% . Mentally .. about 65%. Physically ehh, 50/50 at best... Personality - If you get to know me you will see that I have my moments.
What does it mean to be an ARIES? for me? It's a lot like having tunnel vision - or like - you can't hear the train until it's 3 feet from you. But whatever you're focused on means the world at the time. Especially in aspects of my personality and relationships... I keep touching the hot stove and it takes me over and over again to learn lessons. That's one drawback I guess you could say. It's not all negative though!
When I feel inspiration or motivation I REAAAALLY feel it. I'm in love with ideals and grand concepts. I love freedom, creativity, expansion, LOVE, pioneering, enterprising. I always root for the underdog and identify with oppression. I want to expand - and give forth what I've learned and come to realize.
They say words can't teach, only life experience can. - and for an ARIES that is remarkably true. I just won't be satisfied until I have the REAL experience and only after the RAW trial and error. I have to know I'm going somewhere and that there is an attainable GOAL. I have to feel it - experience it. Also people can tell me again and again what the outcome of some situation or circumstance will be, but unless I experience it full fledge for myself, other people's words / advice seldom have any effect on me.
My outward existence is not quite what it seems and I've been told this before. Most people upon meeting me can peg that I'm holding a lot back, and that there is more to the picture than meets the eye. I never understood why I was so inept at fitting in, showing people who I am, or being able to feel comfortable in seemingly ordinary circumstances. I think maybe it's wrapped up somewhere in my life lessons and the agreements I made before I came here... One thing I can't ever fake though is my emotional state. I'm just an easy read I guess..I wear my heart on my sleeve and it's been for better worse.
Another thing I've been forced to deal with (and this is thankfully more just MY OWN deal) is how young I look. People can't believe when I tell them I'm 30, or that I have a 9 year old son. lol "It's just the way God made me" I say.. or "that's what happens when you sell your soul.. kind of a trade off, you have to stay young forever." - people don't react to that one as much as I'd like them to. Again - something weird that I can only attribute to the agreements I made before coming here. There could be worse things I suppose..
Aries - I feel is a lot like KETHER in the Qabalah - think... "I AM" - I am .. It's the first thing that manifests. It's the first thing that's evident. Both amazing and new, yet uninitiated and foolish. What a weird combination lol.
So anyway that's kind of Aries in a nutshell - in my own opinion and based on findings from my own life.
Spring is here and there are a lot of April birthdays that I know of. As this time comes and goes, I would like to wish all of my Fellow - Arien friends a happy bday - and remember: You're waaaay cooler than any other sign lol
This week's meat and potatoes esoteric entry will be about COLOR. Color is something I don't think too much about in terms of everyday, but for some reason I have been using it more and more lately.. so this will be interesting to write about.
Color can be an extremely powerful tool. Whether you are wearing it, adding it to your business, using it in mental communications, or whatever else. We as humans are aware of a spectrum of color - known as ROYGBIV or - the rainbow. We are aware of many other colors in-between as well, all of which have meaning and give off a certain feeling. I'm going to explain the concept of the spectrum as best I can, what each color represents (in ball park terms) and how we can use this information - some people may not agree with every little thing I say about this and that's ok. My advice would be to pick up whatever resonates with you and simply leave the rest behind.
Anyway - like many things in life - COLOR has a beginning, a middle, and an end - just like numbers (1-10 concept) just like the ABCs, and whatever else. As humans we are only able to detect a certain portion of the spectrum. They say it's basically from black to white in terms of contrast and from red to violet in terms of actual differentiation. Anyway here is a helpful guide to what the colors mean - Feel free to use this, draw from it, or label it as pure garbage. whatever suits you best.
Blue - Communication, Your "outward" effect on the world, Personal Truth, Vocal Ability,
Control of the Essence you give off, How you come across. - Outgoing information
Indigo / Violet - Psychic center, Clairvoyance, - Incoming information, Intuition, Inspiration, Dream center / Higher self
Whites - Union, God, the Universe - the higher parts we can't access yet, "It's all good"
Earth tones - Browns, dark greens / olives etc... - Home, Family, Security, Feeling full,
Happiness, Fruits of our labor, Good Food.
Blacks / Grays - Neutrality, Humble-ism, The Void, Banishing, Tranquility, Blending in, Low
Key.
We can apply and use color in many aspects of our lives. We can wear them to reflect our vibrations, daily moods, etc... we can mentally put color around people / situations we find ourselves around, we can decorate our homes, we can do basically anything with them. The thing to understand is that COLOR elicits a response - and depending on the response we want, we use the color that best applies. This is kind of how magick and occult work goes... it's like algebra. We know the certain values of some things, but we need to put them in some kind of formula to solve for the DESIRED outcome.
Try it out - next time you have a big meeting or social engagement - a little while before hand mentally surround the situation with a color and vibration you wish to have. You'll be surprised how well it works. I do it all the time. People at work, residents, the parking spot I want at the mall, the mail order shit that's on it's way, the food I order. COLOR is really powerful... and it's a fun way to practice clairvoyance / second sight.
Don't forget about the new moon coming up... Couple days or so. Casting / Magickal theory suggests that new moons are the best times to dispel things you don't want anymore - or to get rid of things you are ready to get rid of. New moons are also good for "planting the seeds" of what you'd like to see manifested in the future. Also good for secretive and hidden acts.
Now it's time for a personal anecdote - To lighten the mood and ground us back to normal day to day stuff.
I was in Price Chopper the other day (I go there a lot) and was just kind of getting over my recent illness, tooling around in the produce section when I noticed an odd, middle aged man staring at me from behind the Strawberries. He was wearing sunglasses but I can tell you - he was LOOKING right at me, ... not just looking, but staring. I tried not to notice. I glanced up, made the understanding that this dude it gawking at me and pretended to go back to looking at the juices in front of me. "Hmmm" I thought. "What is that guy looking at?" "Maybe he's blind?" I thought to myself. - and that would explain it. Just a coincidence! He can't tell if he's staring at someone or whatever - he can't see!. but where is his walking stick? He's got all this shit in his basket, perfectly placed.. no seeing eye dog or any noticeable friend helping him out...- there's no way he's blind. Oook, so maybe I'm just being paranoid. Maybe he thought I looked familiar or maybe he's just a pervert or something.. but he's still staring at me. This is getting awkward.. ok tj move on.. turn the corner, just get out of here.
As I continued my shopping I began to wonder.. what if that guy was a secret agent, and maybe I look similar to his contact. He was just sizing me up! Waiting for the secret signal I was unable to give him. Should I go back and check? No - ... don't do that. Maybe I look like his long lost nephew, Leonard - that disappeared into Plattsburgh after getting into some Legal trouble in Montreal, 8 years ago... Well he would have said something if that were the case. Maybe he was just a weirdo - and something about my amazing presence commanded his gaze for like 3 minutes. Maybe I was everything he hated about the new generation and he was looking at me in disgust. Who could ever know? -
Anyway I saw him exiting the store as I was in the checkout line. Well I can tell you one thing - after seeing him up close. He was no secret agent. Infact, he looked more like an ex professional wrestler. All washed up and trying to get a deal on watermelon that morning. HAHA! a non-threat to my life.. nevertheless I said to myself - this will make something good to write about.
Spring is here! We just had the first day of Spring not too long ago and that makes me feel just awesome. This year the first day of Spring happens to fall right after the Solar Eclipse we had last week or so and right before the Lunar Eclipse we're going to have on the 23rd. There are a lot of things going on this month and Astrologically speaking I gather it's supposed to be a real time of self realization and true discovery of where we want to be in life, coupled with feelings of solidarity, realism and practicality of the Universe.
For me it's been like someone giving me binoculars or a radio transmitter or something - I can see and feel things on a wider spectrum (and see all the amazing opportunities life has to offer), but at the same time I'm still in my room and nothing spectacular has actually "taken place" - understanding there are some real things that can't be avoided, such as financial status, career choices, family issues, has been driving me crazy. It's supposed to be a big time for all of us, but you're going to hear all about me for now.
Personally the last week or so has been quite nerve-racking and frustrating. I simply can't stand the feeling of "hurry up and wait", being "stuck" and lacking "control." Some of this I'm sure is related to an "Arien" point of view - so bear with me while I break it down. This week has been about realizing, seeing and fully understanding where I want to be - and then comparing that scenario to the cruddy personal circumstances I have going on presently. For me it's like torture, purgatory... just the worst. Every little crumb of negativity gets amplified and it's like nails on a chalkboard. Keep in mind - things being amplified lately is only part of the current Astrological trends going on - but nevertheless it still makes me want to die.
Lately it's been like, one moment: I get these really hyped up ideas and I feel great, amazing, loving, visual, intense, creative, secure, flawless, all knowing, active, I'm on top of the world, everyone loves me! - and then the next moment: I get slapped in the face with all these harsh realities - My living space is too small, my job is going nowhere, my ex is running the show, I'm a lousy parent, I wish I could be more like normal people, I have issues that no one will ever understand, blah blah blah.. It's all been quite disruptive and my thoughts become all consuming, and because I can't let things go you know what happens?
I get sick. The God / Universe says, "well TJ you bastard you can't calm yourself down so here's a nice buttery virus to help put things into perspective for you." You can't avoid the Judiciary acts of the Universe I guess. - and I paid for it.
Only just tonight (3/21) have I finally caught a glimpse of an honest to goodness supportive quality in the midst of all this intensity. I'm getting over this crappy virus, I'm riding high on endorphins and jiggly legs from the gym, it seems my living situation has a little light at the end of the tunnel now... and I have tomorrow off to relax and align my energy. Thank God.
I will try to squeeze something good out of this - and that is if there is anyone else out there who has felt any of the "powerless" vibe of the Universe lately, or felt like they were being swept away by circumstance, - or found themselves being a slave to monotony and unsatisfying drudgery - just know - You're not alone! They say misery loves company, and believe me I've been feeling it full force. It's been so bad on some days that I just want to drive away and start all over again. A feeling some of you may have had before as well.
That being said - I believe this time of intense self realization is on it's way OUT and the craziness of it all will soon be coming to an end. It won't end on a negative note, however. (and this is how awesome the Universe is -) We will be receiving a FULL MOON to end our path of self discovery. It's like God's way of saying - "So - What are you gonna do about it?"
It's up to us to take our findings, understand what they mean to us, and figure out a way to bring the change we want into our lives. To put all this into very simple terms - This is our time to plant the seeds of what we wish to create. We've seen everything, felt everything, and have a pretty good understanding of where we want to be and what we want to attract in our lives. Some of us had to deal with a little more than others during this phase, and that's ok - some of us are just a little more full tilt. but that's awesome. "god gives the toughest jobs to the toughest people."
The good news is - by the 23rd - when the Full moon shines and fills our reality up, the planting will be done and growth is going to start. Let's make sure we plant the right seeds.
So my last entry might of come off as a little whiney - poor me - look at me - kinda vibe - and rightfully so - I was feeling kind of icky and down in the dumps for various reasons. I get selfish and a very bad case of tunnel vision when things are bad for me... But... TODAY has been much different. I'm considering myself finally OVER whatever virus I had - my search for new living quarters is looking QUITE good now - and things in general just seem to be going my way. I'd like to take a minute to acknowledge this and reflect on this concept of give and take, yin and tang, up and down...
There is a natural attraction of opposites in terms of how the Universe works - it's kind of interesting really... As humans we go through life wanting and striving and hoping for nothing but good things, feeling good, getting good results, only having good positive experiences - BUT inevitably we are faced with some occasional set backs, second thoughts, cold harsh reality, rainy days, injury / sickness, and it just downright blows for a while at times. The trick and truly hard feat as I have come to realize lately - is learning to understand and try to enjoy our times of negativity and unhappiness.
If we broaden our perception we find that there are legit reasons for the negativity we go through in our lives. In essence - There can never truly be an ultimate awesomeness without there being an ultimate shittiness somewhere - it's just the way things perpetuate themselves. I guess it's kind of like a battery - there is a negative and a positive side - both sides of the spectrum are needed to create POWER. - So thank you, life, for giving me a few cruddy days lately. Purgatory or "the cold hard look in the mirror" or whatever you want to call it. All so that the good things to come seem truly good. Or summed up by A. Crowley, "That which I came to destroy, in order that I might fulfill."
So - In the spirit of the Full moon tomorrow - planting seeds - and starting this Spring with our best foot forward - Allow me to wish you the very best success in your life and in all your endeavors. Have you taken the time to look at your life? Do you know what you want? Take an inventory and get those seeds ready because Planting time is NOW.
(Esoteric Tie in)
Notice a theme lately? It's funny because I never fully understood this time of year until I started studying occultism - but it makes so much sense when you think about it. We can't have growth without fertilizer, we can't see anything new unless we take our eyes off something old, the
Winter has to die before the Spring can come to life. We need to have bad days in order to appreciate the good ones - In Easter terms: JC has to die and there HAS to be a period of hopelessness, despair and uncertainty before there can be a time of resurrection, rejoicing and celebration.
So in closing - Happy Easter and I hope I have given you something to think about in the days to come. Life ebbs and flows. If you ever find yourself in a negative mood or situation, know that it's not going to last forever and something awesome is probably right around the corner.
I know I said I would write about some of the Fitness ideas / concepts I've seen in the media lately but truth be told I just haven't been able to watch a lot of TV this last week. Although I can't write about anything too current, I will touch on a few of the shows I've seen and give you my thoughts on them.
Broken Skull Ranch:
This is the one where that Steve Austin guy gets athletes together so they can compete in some majorly intense / competitive type courses.. At the end someone wins and takes home some money and prizes or whatever. I've only seen bits and pieces but it seems like a pretty basic show to me. There's action and you get to see different people from different fitness backgrounds and the obstacles look pretty intense. Fun to watch and entertaining. I just wish they would jazz it up a little bit though - throw in some crocodiles or a snake pit u know?
American Ninja Warrior:
What can I say about this that hasn't already been said? To me this is like THE show that put physical enhancement in the spotlight. It's kind of got that Olympic feel to it - the best people from all different backgrounds are competing, you get a little history about them, etc. What is noteworthy to me is that it really exemplifies the idea that the human body can be amazing and do amazing things - and it's not just all about being able to play baseball, or basketball, or being a good quarterback, etc. Seldom do I see the idea of physical fitness being celebrated without it being attached to something mainstream... thank you for introducing the Ninja vibe to it too. Who doesn't love ninjas?
From Fit to Fat to Fit:
Woaaah nelly lol this is ummm... thinking outside the box? I don't even know WHAT to think about this one... I have only seen commercials for it and a few bits and pieces of it at the Nursing Home but it seems like the trainer deliberately flushes their life down the toilet for a period of time, puts on 15-20 lbs or whatever, so that their client can feel good about working out. The client gets to have a buddy going through the same things basically. In essence it seems like a shock factor cheap sell to me that won't last long... but who knows. First of all - personally - just as a human being, I would NEVER ask someone to alter their physical appearance just for me NOR would I feel like that is even necessary... I don't get it - like I don't even understand how the idea even enters the equation... UNLESS - the athlete is doing it for themselves, like as a weird inner journey / psychological experiment or something. "What else is there ? What kind of boundaries can I push?" kind of thing... Ohh boy. It seems to be a hit at the Nursing Home, so maybe there is hope. aaaand I have never seen a full episode so I suppose I can't judge a book by it's cover. but from where I sit right now - it looks a little too icky... not my cup of tea.
Dwayne Johnson's - Wake Up Call:
THIS was my absolute favorite take on the whole fitness / proactive lifestyle getting put into TV show format. It was short lived and only had like one or two episodes but it hits a home run and ranks high on my list. First of all I love this guy. It's like an all around good guy, embracing positivity, change, doing the right thing. He always plays the HERO archetype, good hearted, respectful. Really I mean he's just a total smiley douche bag, lol but idk, I always had love for this guy.
Anyway the show featured the rock going from place to place, helping down and out people. People in the show were in really bad circumstances. Facing problems like addiction, poverty, racism, - relationship issues, family drama things like that. and the rock would help them. With whatever powers the rock has (and of course some physical fitness stuff) He would help people graduate school, get over their sad issues, get a job, find themselves, whatever else. I thought that was just lovely.
It's not hard to see WHY the show got cancelled... I mean it's not exactly entertaining and there's no real reason to tune in week after week. There was no real premise besides just the idea of helping people become better versions of themselves - but that in my eyes is worth of watching. Good for you Rock! I knew what you were going for... or as you might say - " I could smell what you were cooking!" hahahaha lol
Sorry to see you go. It would be nice to see a comeback.
Hi ! Glad you could make it - It's been a strange and cool few weeks for me but I haven't forgotten about you, my truly amazing and gifted readers lol. This time around I'll give you some thoughts and updates on the current conditions of my life, get majorly heady with my take on - DREAMING.. and explain how going to the gym is still awesome.
To start with I'd like to just say that the current trends in my life have been quite TRANSITIONAL. I'm not sure if you can relate, but personally it's been a very informative, albeit painful last few days for me. I saw something earlier that describes it very well - "It's like you've been given angel wings and you're being ripped out of your old life." Or something similar - "There's a time when it becomes too painful to keep existing in your current form." - I've been basically hit in the face with all kinds of things that I feel are about to change, my world around me is reflecting back the answers to my questions, and this kind of thing is going to be on a MAJOR level - like permanent. So try as I might to keep my cool, I can't help but be totally excited and looking forward to what the future has to offer.
I'm currently leaning toward the idea of scrapping the concept of financing a house... It's just not the right time and I feel there are still some "apartment days" I can conjure up, especially while I'm finishing school. What I really need now is Focus, and Alignment.. I will, however, keep a thoughtspace of my intentions well defined - so if and when the time comes for me to become a "homeowner" it will be perfect and hopefully as I always imagined it.
I might be taking "tjwritesitdown" to a different avenue as well... I'd like to harness a more themed out version and give readers something a little more hyped up. I like the idea of keeping occultism as part of it, but then again who knows... I have lots of other ideas and stories I can share , I just need to find the right form and maintain the right outlet. As they say ... it's a work in progress.
For this time around my Esoteric Entry will be something I like to consider truly awesome. In fact, of all the "tools" we can use and incorporate into our proactive union of flesh and spirit - I consider this to be my "strongest" skill. aaaaaaand that skill is called DREAMING.
I'm going to explain DREAMING - what it is, what it means, and how to use it to your advantage (as I have come to understand it.)
You probably understand that when our bodies go to sleep our minds continue to process information, relay information to us, and we ultimately have what we call dream experiences. If you're lucky you can sometimes remember them. If you're like most people you can probably recall a weird dream you've had before (or keep having). Frequently remembering dreams is a great step in the right direction, but not everyone can do this. If you find that you can dream frequently - and actually remember them - you have a good foundation for this.
Consciousness is the name of the game here... Our consciousness is what we use to decipher, acknowledge, and understand our surroundings. In life we go around and have a relationship with the world we live in... in our dreams we do the same, but most of the time it's silly or weird or vague or whatever else because we've never considered the idea that we can actually EXPLORE the dream world.
The first step to this is actually to believe / acknowledge and say to yourself "hey, maybe there is a way I can do this."
There are a lot of people who would scoff at the idea that we can access higher dimensions of ourselves and learn to dream, simply sweeping it all under the carpet of the only known PHYSICAL sciences... but when you start to give things a chance you will soon realize that EVERYTHING must have SOMETHING behind it... this is the nature of the Universe. and DREAMING is just a method of raising your vibration to a bigger aspect of what is here on earth and coming down from the cosmos.
There are differences between the subtle variety of conscious experiences we have while our body is asleep. We can have run of the mill ordinary dreams - something happens, we notice we're in a funny or scary or weird situation or whatever - and things seem to happen AUTOMATICALLY - and that's what most of us call our every day dreams... but every once in a while we have a "lucid dream" - and for a brief few moments we actually realize that we are dreaming. I'm sure if you're over 20 years old you must have had SOMETHING like this happen to you at one point or another. We realize we're dreaming and it becomes kind of cool and interesting for a split second, then it usually derails and we wake up. If we're lucky we get to try out flying cause that's like the first thing everyone goes for.
Eventually if you have enough of these lucid type dreams, learn to trust the experience and so on, you can make some pretty neat things happen. You can learn to fly around, meet a few dream characters, learn to experiment with the environment, etc... and at some point - usually during some unusual circumstances - you will finally achieve a full on ASTRAL PROJECTION - which I have to say, is just the fuckin' coolest, most amazing shit ever.
I'm talking full on mind blowing, LIFE changing experience. This is where your mind / body becomes comfortable enough with whatever mechanism that's taking place and allows your duplicate / "etheric" double to exit your body and explore the astral planes.
Think of a place, an actual real place that "exists" - where all our thoughts come together and maintain a living breathing plane - this is the Astral plane - there are many levels and it's shifting and under a great deal of our control. BUT it's also a real place and totally exists. If you find yourself having an experience like this consider yourself lucky. You are accessing a part of yourself / the universe with GREAT significance.
Imagine going to sleep, and suddenly becoming aware of your surroundings - you think you've woken up - and as u get up, exit your bed, and stretch, you realize it's still your room but things are different. Colors might be different, you might hear odd noises, furniture maybe has moved around. Something is off - but it can't be - you're completely conscious and aware that you just got out of bed. That's when you look back and see your body sleeping. - woah. this can be a little freaky. and is usually the point where we scare ourselves back into our body... Simple piece of advice - if you notice your body sleeping in the bed, instead of freaking out - jump out the window, or exit the room...once you're a good distance away you forget how scary it seems and can really have some fun : )) ) I could write a whole book on this but I won't... Instead - I will just say that this is ENTIRELY possible and one of the most amazing, fun and beautiful hobbies you will ever have.
You will never get separated from your body - you can't - believe me I've tried, and the worst case scenario is you get scared and jolt back into your body, or some form of higher WILL puts you back into your body.
I understand this sounds a little nutty or like on the edge of craziness or something but believe me it's not. This is a real phenomena and you can look it up.
ASTRAL PROJECTION is not as common as regular memorable dreams, but if you want to start working with your own dream exploration here are some helpful tips:
Accept that there is a VERY REAL possibility that when our physical bodies go to sleep, our
minds are able to live and explore higher states of awareness / consciousness.
Keep a journal of the dreams you have -
Learn to decipher your own dream language... We dream in symbols. So whatever
happens must be PERSONALLY meaningful and significant to you in some way or another.
Learn to decipher these symbols.
Trust in the experience - Allow It to happen. It seems counter intuitive to just "give in" to
something... but in a world where like energy attracts like energy, the last thing you want to do is
be fearful, scared, or believe this kind of thing is not possible.
Tell your close friends about your dreams. You never know - you might get lucky. There have
actually been a couple times in my life where I've met people I know in my dreams and we could
in fact describe the same situation or scenario in our waking lives (Careful on this one... there's
a fine line between confiding in a personal friend and just looking like a creeper. lol)
This is a really intense subject - but I hope I helped shed SOME light on the idea. Follow your dreams / become your dreams - and it will trickle down into your waking world and things will be THAT much more amazing. Dreaming is also great practice for learning to trust your inner feelings and intuition.
It's been at least 4 months or so (I can't remember exactly when I started) since I've been an official gym member and going on a routine basis. I think it's fair to say I've been averaging getting a decent work out at least twice a week since I started - even more frequently recently. All in all it's been pretty interesting journey. The thing that's been on my mind though, especially lately, is this all of a sudden river of energy that I feel I've tapped into. It's like at some point something clicks on.
Very "Wow ok so THIIIIISSSS is what it's all about" type of realization. I figure there's a good amount of people out there that go into the idea of fitness so they can start looking better, get some physical results, some self confidence, just be able to lift heavier shit or whatever and don't really think too much beyond that... (I can't front though I mean basically that's what I got into it for as well.) AT some point though, it sort of turns into something a lot more meaningful.
In terms of personal productivity it starts to jump start your vibration. Suddenly things begin to seem a lot more possible, dreams become more tangible, projects and interests start coming up all the time, you feel better more often, etc. It's like joining a secret society of people who figured these things out.
Don't get me wrong... it might not be like "this" for everyone, but it's especially pronounced for me because I JUST came from some pretty LOW places and the contrast is just amazing. It's like holy shit. Also, it's really awesome and refreshing to dive into some PHYSICAL aspects of my world. I feel it bridges the gap and will help even out how much energy / time I place on the NON-physical aspects.
Taking charge of the vessel you're given is like creating the fuel you need to pilot your own destiny. And just about anything is possible right? so let it ride lol. I just thought I'd share my PERSONAL experience for those interested.
To put things into some sort of perspective - I started around Xmas.. (so idk give it atleast 3 months.) I didn't even mess with my diet all that much. I just cut down on shit food and started paying attention to healthier options. Looking back and comparing myself to now, though, I feel way different. I feel it works best if you keep it simple, make it JUST about you. Don't do it for someone else or for any particular reason. Just try it and see what starts happening. For me it's resonated a lot further into my life - into my dreams, my thoughts, my feelings. It's like everything gets upgraded. tj 2.0 .... fuccck me. lol
Next time I think I'll talk about some of the "fitness" shows I've seen on TV... my thoughts and input.
Thanks for reading - Please send me good thoughts and vibrations, as I will for you. So our collective endeavors maintain momentum and bring us full on into Spring. I'm not even done writing this and I already have ideas for what might come next! Here's some music that sort of reflects all this...
"We live in secret, we live in silence.. and we live forever."
Hey, guys! It's February in the North Country ...which means we are battling annoying head colds, fantasizing about warmer weather, and getting ready for Valentines Day! In this edition of tjwritesitdown I'm going to give you my thoughts on V-day, let you in on some personal goals of mine for the Summer, clue you in on some updates regarding the future of my "Esoteric Entries"- and also leave you with a bit about Astrology.
Valentines Day is mostly known for the idea of highlighting and celebrating the romantic love between you and your partner. If you're single it's just kind of a great excuse to buy candy and chocolate for yourself. If you are with someone you really love and are feeling good about it, it's a great excuse to get comfy, eat food and have sex. God bless the people in relationships out there and allow me to wish you the best of success. If you're single, God bless you as well, and ENJOY the time you have alone... because soon enough you may find yourself sharing your life with someone else, and that can be a major pain in the ass.
My point here is that Valentine's day doesn't have to be just for people who are in romantic relationships. Just cause you're not in a "romantic" relationship, doesn't mean you can't express love to someone or something you care about. Valentine's Day is about LOVE - in and of itself.
Whether you're in a relationship or not - let this be a moment of clarity and positivity to you. Love is love is love.
The history of Valentines Day is actually kind of inspiring and exemplary of the kind of love I think we need more of in this world... I didn't do too much research into this so please fact check me if you like - but one legend I came across was pretty cool:
St. Valentine was scheduled to be executed (martyred) back in the day for something to do with wanting to bang girls and be in relationships, etc while all the other soldiers were fighting and forbidden to do that kind of thing during wartime. Valentine was also a devout follower of Christ which was a risky thing to do back then as well... However, despite all that, Valentine managed to become friends with the jailer who was responsible for maintaining his security before his execution. The jailer and St. Valentine remained friends up until the time of his death. In one last illustration of his dedication to Truth / Love Valentine performed a miracle as a token of appreciation of the jailer's kindness:
St. Valentine cured the jailer's daughter of her born blindness. After the jailer had witnessed the amazing feat he no longer questioned the word of Valentine's teachings / way of life or whatever - and as a result the jailer's entire family converted to Christianity and started following the word of Christ. (They became convinced of a higher power and started actively believing in it) -
The night before his execution Valentine wrote a short letter to the jailer's daughter - he signed it "your valentine." - which is where we get the concept of exchanging cards and notes on V-day.
This is such a beautiful thing in my eyes. Valentine offers his love, friendship, and miraculous abilities even in the face of death. He did something amazing for someone who in essence was putting him to death. He stood up for what he believed in and carried it with him until he was executed.
Instead of being all like, hey u know people don't like me, I better try to change and do what's expected - he was all like eff that I love love, and u know what, here's you daughter's sight back too just cause I'm that kinda dude. yessss! Isn't that just the most righteous thing?
I'd like to think that every time we use the term "Valentine" on this day it's making reference to the idea that TRUE love is forever, and limitless, and invincible. A.K.A. - unconditional.
Take this sentiment with you this Valentine's day. Who or what do you love in your life? Is there anything you love without question, no matter what, in the face of all odds, despite anything at all? Family? Friends? Your significant other? Your pets? Your things? Your style ....Yourself?
Take a minute to acknowledge the things that bring you love without question or condition - the things in your life that make you believe in true unconditional love. Be also thankful for the ability to show your appreciation for these things!
In closing I wish you all a very awesome Valentines Day. Many blessings and Cadbury eggs upon you!
This Spring has found me particularly successful in certain realms and I'm thinking of making some major changes. I'd like to either finance a house or get an apt. by the Fall so I can gear myself toward going back to School. I have been accepted to NCCC for the Fall Semester and I feel like it's a good time in my life to continue my education. County has treated me very well thus far and I don't want anyone to take this as a "moving on" or anything like that. My aim is to continue on and adapt as best I can... retaining County as my main source of income.
Anyway the point of this segment is my own invitation of sorts to anyone who thinks they may benefit from gaining a roommate in the Fall... In my most ideal world I would like to continue my service to others at CCNH, while pursuing my RN, and offering esoteric services on the side.
I will be going to NCCC Saranac Lake campus so the best thing in order to keep the commute to a minimum would be to find a place between the two areas - Saranac / Morrisonville at the least.
If you're thinking about pursuing higher education yourself and daring enough to jump on the coat-tails of fate please let me know. NCCC offers a bunch of avenues for higher education (including LPN and RN) and this could work out really awesomely for the right person.
I have all my books and notes from my time at CV-tech and would be glad to help anyone out if they are thinking of going into Nursing. Despite my demeanor I am actually quite knowledgeable and have a way of making good things happen. : )
Just f.y.i. - I don't do the party thing much and prefer honest upfront dedicated types as opposed to people who are just looking to get by for a couple months... I'm an idealist with big ideas but sometimes lack the discipline to get things off the ground, so someone who knows how to focus / reign in my scattered energies would be nice (especially for school work lol) I'm also a practicing occultist / new ager, which really shouldn't get much in the way of your business, but may seem odd at times. I love music and anything creative. I have a son that I try to spend as much time as possible with, but during those times I will most likely be in Plattsburgh.
If you're a straight shooter considering a change in life and think you can deal with me let me know.
Any ideas / thoughts / considerations / concerns are welcome - if this sounds like something you could work with give me a shout. An issue shared is an issue halved - I can't GUARANTEE anything solid at this moment - I'm just thinking out loud for right now... but I CAN say if it feels right and seems legit, it's very likely to be fortunate and prosperous.
So after some consideration / contemplation I have decided to veer off into a more "practical" / "user friendly" type of format concerning my Esoteric Entries / Occult Advice. I don't want to come off too much like I'm trying to convert people, thinking my beliefs are better than anyone else's, etc.
In the future you can look forward to things more akin to quick snippets, friendly day to day advice, thoughts, meditations, affirmations, etc... and less of a "how to" in supernatural studies.
- I think the people who get this stuff will naturally find their way here, and I will allow the chips to fall where they may. That being said - my "Esoteric" entry this week will be on Astrology.
Since it's Valentine's Day I figure it would be nice to explain a little bit about Astrology and Compatibility... I'm by no means an accomplished astrologist, but I know enough to give you some food for thought:
Most of you probably know your Astrological sign and what it means to be "you" in those terms... Some of you might know more depending on your level of interest. For those of you who aren't as familiar, allow me to explain...
The Science of Astrology essentially proposes that the conditions of celestial bodies, planets, stars, etc can be used to determine earthly, "terrestrial" occurrences and patterns, even down to an individual's habits and tendencies. This information can be used to size people up and get a grasp on how they relate to one another...
In terms of compatibility - generally speaking they say that Fire signs go best with Air signs, and Earth signs go best with Water signs. This is just a guideline - remember opposites attract sometimes, and try to think of compatibility as a gradual scale as opposed to a black and white template
Some say this is a pseudoscience at best and there is no hard data to back these claims. I personally have found it to be quite accurate and spookily precise at times. I think like anything else, though, the more you look into it and practice it, the more you will experience valid results.
Anyway Astrology is just another useful tool to help you understand the hidden world around you - and on this occasion, possibly give you a leg up on relationships ; )
Check this site out for a great introduction on Astrology, complete with daily horoscopes, sign descriptions, and YES - compatibility ratings : )
Hey there, everyone - Sorry it's been a while since I had anything to say but I've been busy with other things. Hopefully everyone is having a good time and feeling positive about 2016. Lots of ups and downs in my life but I'm feeling positive about the future. Still taking care of people at County, still working out at Powerhouse, still continuing my personal path to enlightenment... and still thinking of cool things to do! I can't complain and truth be told there are some pretty awesome things on the horizon. This edition will be kind of short and simple - BUT there is always more to come...
This "Esoteric Entry" is going to deviate slightly from the way I had planned things. I feel at this point it is ok though and for this occasion maybe even necessary.
While at work the other day I heard some sad news that yet again, another young person in a local school district committed suicide. Although I am not 100% sure, I did hear from a number of sources that Bullying was a major contributor of this incident. So in memory of this young man, I'd like to talk a little bit about the concept of the "group mind", how it relates to Occultism, Bullying, and our every day lives.
Whenever there is a situation where people "gang up" on an individual, on an unseen level it USUALLY relates to the need for acceptance. In a system where a number of individuals are gathered together (such as school, or work, etc..) there is a phenomena that occurs that makes acceptance to a whole a top priority. There becomes a need to fit in and be part of the greater numbers. This I'm sure can be traced back to the days when we were still in a "Tribe" type stage of existence.
Think of a time when you have witnessed this idea in action. In the news, in your local community, remembering when you were back in school, in your work place, etc .. Back in the day it was so crucial to be part of a larger system - it meant survival, it meant safety, it meant security. and this is ingrained in us. Unfortunately in recent times the reasoning is not always as righteous or productive.
For many people, if they see a number of there peers ganging up on, ridiculing, making fun of, or hating on someone else an inner sense of "need to be a part of" kicks in, and it becomes far too easy to join the legion of "bullys." If you're not accepted as part of a group you are in essence cast out and most of the time we find ourselves on one side or another...
This is why Occultists (and anyone really) need to be aware about this kind of thing. It can be very easy to get swayed into something if you don't have your head about you. Especially if great numbers are involved. This is how things like racism, sexism, homophobia, etc spread around... not to mention the salem witch trials.. (little occult joke there) - If you find yourself in a situation that you know in your heart doesn't agree with your values there is a chance you are being "led on" by something you're much better off without.
The problem with bullying in my opinion, is that kids get caught up so easily with the idea that it means so much to be accepted that very often they will do anything to become part of that group. Even if it means the degradation or humiliation of someone else.
I can remember the "school yard" days of my youth quite well... I gravitated toward wherever my friends went - for better or worse... and I suspect this is the same for a lot of us. Only until I got a little older and more knowledgeable did I realize that thinking for myself was a viable option and there is such thing as right and wrong.
There are many victims of the bully culture - firstly the outsiders / people being rejected by the group, and then secondly very often the individuals of the group themselves, (and thirdly - not to mention - the families of everyone who is involved).
There are some would-be solutions to this awful occurrence that keeps happening in schools across America (and keep in mind, all this I'm saying is just my opinion) - I feel that hands down we need to PROMOTE the best way we can, that Bullying is NOT COOL.
We need to PROMOTE that It's MORE than not cool, and in fact it's DANGEROUS to your character, the community, and the wellbeing of society. Chances are a lot of these kids who are part of these groups of bullies or what have you are just blissfully ignorant of what damage they are causing. They just know they need to be accepted somewhere. If we took a little time to spread some truth - some honest, decent, cool, good truth, I bet things could change.
In essence, the greater group - the whole - the entirety - the populous - needs to be ANTI-BULLY. I strongly suggest to the people involved in this local tragedy to do whatever they can to organize and do what they have to in order to help make bullying as UNCOMFORTABLE as possible. The idea is that we want to make bullying, making fun of someone, whatever you want to call it, as UNCOOL as possible and as AWKWARD as standing up and doing the macareena in the middle of a church service... or as awkward as practicing a trombone at the movie theater... You feel what I'm saying?
When there's a Will there's a way, and as sad as it is that another young person with potential and a future got to the point where suicide was the only way out, I believe that his death will increase this kind of awareness, and GOOD will come out of it. - and who knows, maybe the attention that's being created will save someone else's life one day.
One last thing - If anyone out there knows these people or has any information on how to get in contact to help out or be part of a solution please let me know. I feel strongly about this and am willing to do my part to help things get better. Thank you for reading
So it looks like Plattsburgh is opening up a LEGAL marijuana dispensary for those who are in need. Right on - You Go Plattsburgh! Way to be so medically open minded... lol In a town full of republicans I'm wondering if they had a hard time to finally make this happen. I'm not sure how many people around here are actually prescribed marijuana but it must be enough to constitute a dispensary. Perhaps it might have something to do with us being so close to VT as well? I can't imagine it's too far before they legalize the recreational use as well - even if it's just for the tax revenue. How crazy would it be if NY dropped the hammer on that one...
Anyway, good luck to all the people involved with the medical dispensary. I can tell you that from a medical standpoint, as a professional in the healthcare field I have seen some things - and it certainly seems that there are some people out there getting legitimate life giving benefits from the use of marijuana. So why not make sure the people who are entitled to these benefits get medical grade, clean product? Makes sense, no?
I won't bore you with my personal feelings on the drug itself, but I will leave you with this:
